I’d like to start this article with a quote from the famous thinker John Ruskin.
“There is no music in a rest, but there is the making of music in it.”
I’ve taken a break from games for the last couple of weeks.
It has been refreshing.
In that time I’ve become proficient with the programming IDE Neovim, I learned and dropped the programming language ODIN, I took some front end tutorials, and more than anything, I had the chance to sit with myself for a while.
I spent a lot of time baking too! I have a sourdough starter, and I made some amazing focaccia after years of trying to get it right.
I re-did my resume too. I found the site caljobs.com and took all the assessments. I used it to create a resume, build a cover letter, set up virtual recruiters apply to jobs become a power user apply for help and benefits oh and I’ve also been dealing with my car insurance from the crash feeding my dogs watering the plants feeding myself putting shoes on before I leave the house brushing my teeth seeing my girlfriend crocheting writing cooking keeping up with friends managing family drama finances finances finances…
Rest.
I sit here. Staring at this web-editor, this blank canvas because I truly enjoy doing so.
I feel like I say this every time I write, but the feedback I get from my friends and family when I write is some of the best feedback I’ve ever gotten. I’m totally starved for purpose at this point.
I find myself trapped in the misconception that committing to something is doing only that and nothing else. I’m sure many of you have found yourself in the same place as well at one point.
I want to find a job. I need money. You need to give up everything you enjoy doing in order to make that happen. Focus on one thing and make yourself as marketable in that as possible.
It’s hard to admit but I can’t help the feeling I’ve had it wrong. I’d like to go back to the days of the Quantity = Quality mindset.
Give myself a rest from the expectations and the grind.
Focus on what I want, and allow in the help that I need.
This truly has been the hardest chapter in my life so far for so many reasons. I appreciate everyone in my life who chooses to bring light along with them into dark situations.
Shiny, Brett, Brian, Mom, Uncle Rich, Aunt Wendy, My Cousins, Grandma, Colby.
I can’t thank you enough for being sources of light.
I’ll see you all in the next article about games or something!
Love yall!